chosen.

this is what bothering me now. heh.

Tahniah! Anda terpilih menyertai Program Latihan Khidmat Negara Siri 9/2012.

	NAMA	:	MURSHIDA
	NO. KP	:	94102101****

Penempatan pelatih akan dimaklumkan kemudian. Terima kasih.

i mean, hell yeah. cis. terpilih rupanya.

i know dah lambat gila nak update pasal benda ni.

(haha, sebab aku takde kat rumah en.)

-imagining aku pakai baju biru, HAHA yang macam baju 4 KRS tu.-

kecewa sikit la bila dapat. tipu ar siapa kate tak kecewa. 3 bulan dher.

ingat bila spm, well, boleh spend masa kat rumah.

do whatever yang patut.

lebih mengecewakan bila ade orang kate, budak sekolah agama selalunya akan tercampak untuk SIRI KETIGA! haaa~ siri ke3 tu orang dah masuk U okay?!

okay, kenapa ade diskriminasi kat situ?

hummm, ingatkan dah fully tinggalkan kawad dan semua2 tu. -.-"

haish, ayah aku terdiam dengar aku cakap aku dapat plkn.

TAHNIAH lah. mmg gov suka family aku en. dah 3 orang dapat. cis.

sekian. (terupdate) hee.

SPM

KEEP FIGHTING!!

LILLAHITA'ALA~

16 WEEKS LEFT.

Don't ever let them bring you down, dear!

serious dah tak tahu how to start or end.

so, this might be the last post kot. before SPM.

official ending. oK, g'bye~

yeah, for the rest of B13 , hope you can strive the BEST.

esp in HISTORY! :)

it was an epic

first of all.

this post might be boring lah. kot

because maybe dah ramai la orang yang post bnde ni.

it's about Mukhayyam

yeah, the last mukhayyam kat skola.

and the best thing is takde kawad or pape yang kaitan dengan KRS.

tu paling penting. lol.

okay, tu bukan pointnya.

after midterm exam, history last paper, habis paper tu,

haish, terus je mukhyyam.

tahulah sume stress tahap giga jawab soalan tu pastu

stress lagi dengan ade mukhayyam sebab everyone rase cam nak enjoy lepas exam.

tapi malangnya haish, tak boleh.

1st day,

i got sth, but not all.

at night, ade talk yang got me sleep.

haish mmg la tido sbb stayed up that night for sej.

mane boleh tahan. tido je la tepi dewan.

yeah, ubat ngantuk is tidur. :)

2nd day;

for god sake, we never knew yang peraturan sekolah kata kalau ade prog takley tido dalam dorm. [or mungkin antara 4 org tu aku je yang tak tahu?]

haha, srryyyy, bukannya sengaja nak bgn lambat. BUKAN SENGAJA. but thanks for sesiapa yang tegur. yeah our fault.

lepas ni, kalau ade mukh lagi, aku tkkan tido dalam dorm oke? :)

tak semua orang perfect kan?

and, we started our prog with da'wah people randomly kat Larkin.

we got task which asked us to da'wah people yang non-muslim.

i swear, it was hard! i'm speechless. partner aku yang banyak cakap sebab dia terror speaking.

haha, lol.

and then

we arrived at Tg Resang. Mersing at 3.30 pm.

err, my team tak dapat rasa kejar sheep or anything like that.

and tak dapat jugak tgk pengiring (ustazah) lari lari nak pegi camp site.

we got there by kereta la. sebab petir xD

and, we are the first team yang arrived .

macam2 orang jumpa.

Atheis.

we learnt that everyone has their own opinions and perspectives towards Islam.

we, as the next generation, have to change theirs perspectives. yeah!

if we stop the da'wah, siapa yang nak sambung?

3rd day ;

the day that i think,

might be change my life after that. i hope so.

macam2 rasa,

yes

-i learnt a lot.

thanks because kalau takde mukhayyam mmg smpi sekarang aku takkan hargai sisa masa2 aku kat sekolah.

i might be some loser je kat skolah tu.

aku mungkin akan terus menerus tak suka budak2 tu.

yeah, we complete each other kan.

kita unique bukan?

they have high hopes toward us.

kenapa kite still behave macam budak tak matang kan?

day 4,

balik! after almost 6 weeks tak balik.

yeah, balik juge akhirnya! balik rumah.

huhu. :D

and i hope kawan kawan B13 will achieve the best for SPM '11,

dapat tebus balik sejarah silam PMR.

for Allah, Islam and also ourselves.

not just SPM, but also success in our life.

Batch 13, BEST!!

-coming up, will go to Penang~

travel lagi! ;)

p.s banyak kali ulang lagu batch13. tak tahu bape banyak kali. ;)

changes :)

salam.

when you start to make a changes.

S.A.C.R.I.F.I.C.E is a vital.

no more lepak2 petang2..

homeworks/revisions always waiting for me.

and also, basuh baju, iron baju sume.. haish, buat bnde2 cmni la bosannn.

and.. emotion..

taruk tepi or keep it in the locker first..

habis SPM amek la balik emotions tu.

'siapa yang tak sabar nak kuar sekolah?' -.-"

me!! tak sebenarnya.. 50-50.. sebab tak nak stay asrama lagi..

and in the class..

'KAMI ANTI TIDUR'

-amalkan senaman tangan.

it's not going to work for me..

EAT! / SLEEP

to get over the sleepiness in the class.. tapi..

haishh.. you really don't want your teacher to call out your name and ask you a Q's that you don't know the answer right? so better tak tidur.. dalam kelas..

and.. sacrifice...

it's hard for me..

but.. well.. i'll try..

to change... for a better future..

bak kate dia..

now, you don't have to focus on what you can't control..

YOU NEED TO FOCUS ON WHAT YOU CAN CONTROL...

it's easy..

don't focus on SPM result.. because it's Allah punye kerja... dan kita tak boleh control tu.

so, focus on our USAHA! yeahh! sebab tu kita boleh control ;)

dan... that's all Allah akan tengok!

chill out.. homeworks menanti... banyak sangat! takpe.. go! go!

aahh, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vr_xvgUSLdI Firdaus - Saat Terindah..

oh yeay, ada ANAS KOQ! hahaha. :)

o.O

JELESSSS!

TT^TT

so beautiful !

and this tooooo~

sangat terujaaa~

thanks siapa yang recommend video dia ni. (haha dah terlupa siapa. ngaa~)

promises.

hello,

baru balik dari terengganu, which was tiring..

-.-"

okay..

tak tahu nak mula macam mana..

bismillah..

bila awak awak semua rasa dianaktirikan.. which is.. diabaikan..

even though you have your rights.. but.. yeah..

sakitkan hati dengan orang yang buat macam tu kat kita? argh!

tapi.. apa yang korang boleh buat melainkan tutup telinga dan pejamkan mata korang? and all pancaindera yang korang ade... korang kene jauhkan dari mereka2 tu.. allergy..

but you just..

go on with your life walau hati terlampau sakit..

you can't never change the circle..

that's how life works.

that's how they work.. for me.. it unprofessional..

they are like robot y'know.. heartless habes takde perasaan..

" life is cruel. "

look.. i'm smiling.. yeah.. obviously fake..

i know you can feel that too..

and..

well, when you broke promise yang quite lama la you pegang.... with someone yang you care gila2..

haish. guilty..

nak minta maaf pon rasa macam.. hey..

x cukup dengan maaf.. it's more to.. benci diri sendiri..

but that's how i feel now..

even dia tak tunjuk yang dia terluka..

but i know.. she is..

i don't know whether it was my fault or not..

it's just don't feel right...

so, SORRY!

wassalam.. esok balik asrama sudaa.

tak suka sudah..

holiday

hey!

aaaaaa balik rumah sudah!

tapi hati memang tetap kat asrama. HA-HA-HA.

okay, cukup menipu. hehe

sooooo, many things happened.

like Smat-V

which is .. i don't why i entered gubahan contest. noob betul.

but hey! we WON THE 1ST PRIZE!

yeay for the fantasy-palace-with-the-princess-purplish-wrapping.

great teammates. lepaskan segala tension seyh masuk benda alah tu.

and.. kem sejarah, which is.. a bit booriinngg.

history? adoiii. i don't understand why this subject perlu wujud.

dan lagi2 kalau kene belajar pasal bangsa negara.. oh my..

and kalau dapat guru yang macam suka2 tanya2 bila korang ngantuk dalam kelas.

HAHAHA. (banyak kali kene) then.. mamai punya pasal..

boleh tak tahu negeri2 tak bersekutu.. haha.. pastu tak pasal2 kene baca RUKUN NEGARA!!.

ceh, bajet cam aku tak tahu je RN ape. heh.

and.. uhhh... macam2 pressure..

macam tu.. macam ni..

bila semua benda yang korang dah rancang hancur macam tu je..

you sacrifice for someone... then..

you tak dapat nak capai sesuatu tu.. haish..

i feel.. regret... disappointed.. sad.. of course..

but, bak kate beliau..

"mungkin ade hikmah kalau antum semua tak pergi.."

yeah right.. i'm over it. for her.. please jangan mention lagi pasal benda alah tu..

tension betul.. stress aku jadinya...

oh... dan bila kawan korang suddenly changed...

tahulah awak nak jadi baik... takkan la sampai lupa kawan-kawan awak?

ke awak dah tak anggap kterang kawan lagi? TSK. sedih.

or.. kterang ni tak cukup baik untuk kawan dengan awak ?

huh~ how i miss the old times..

boleh tak awak lepaskan semua benda tu dan kembali macam dulu?

boleh..? tak boleh..?

maybe next time.. sometimes..

aku rasa tak sabar tengok kau jatuh.. uhhhh.

but kite takde hak untuk halang seseorang untuk berubah the way they want to.

let her be murshida... fine..

aaaaaa.

macam2 la yang jadi.. oh yeah!!

the day before balik rumah.. we had soooooo much FUN!!

110311 - BIRTHDAY WADDAH!!

that day memang aku stres tahap langit ke-10 seyh.

nasib baik ade korang yang plan bende2 macam ni..

sorry for the eggs and flour yang esok paginya kalau perasan kat tapak projek uh bau hanyir telur..

sorry.. :) hahaha.

sorry sebab aku main suck habes.. dengan bendah alah tu yang tuning tak best.. hak3.. dan.. yelah.. kat asrama mana boleh nak berlatih main benda uh en...

jibah, aina, pizah, waddah, kimah - lain kali buat lagi~!

sayang korang !! aku jujur ni.. haha, okay2.. dah2..

cheesy gile okay.

bye!

the first song yang aku cari bila ngadap lappy kat rumah.

xD

thanks SHE!

off.

Hye,

today is saturday. tomorrow is sunday,

that means, esok balik asrama.

yucks.

bermula balik kehidupan yang agak memenatkan.

euw. dan belajar.

serious tak sabar nak amek SPM. uhuk

and, sukan sekolah.

and Chemistry,

and Biology,

and Addmath.

and juniors. (ahaha, masuk asrama baru aku kenal budak junior. kalau tak.. haram la nak tahu)

haha.

and etc.

Goodbye. tak nak update sampai masanya. Bye!

p.s cukup bengang eh, you pergi kenduri kahwin makan pakai tangan. lepas habes makan, tengok semua orang makan pakai sudu garfu. perghh, buat orang rasa malu je nak pergi basuh tangan. -.-"

offline.

Bye.

Bye,

2010. sobs, banyak sangat kenangan.

rasa nak ulang balik segala Drama, Choral Speaking, Form4's life, Leaders, macam-macam.

T^T

but..

hello, 2011. Happy New Year everyone! hope for some miracles from you :)

okay.

sungguh, diri ini tidak mampu untuk menerima kenyataan. bahawa esok,

saya akan meninggalkan rumah ini. mampukah?

okay, first time nak tinggalkan rumah lama-lama.

apa rasa? sedih.

takde maknanya aku boleh kata aku bahagia sangat kena stay asrama. tak. mungkin.

dan tak terkata.

p.s pergh, ni baru rasa nak pergi asrama. agak-agak kalau mati macam mana? semua perlu ditinggalkan.