Sunday, March 20, 2011

promises.

hello,

baru balik dari terengganu, which was tiring..
-.-"

okay..
tak tahu nak mula macam mana..

bismillah..

bila awak awak semua rasa dianaktirikan.. which is.. diabaikan..
even though you have your rights.. but.. yeah..
sakitkan hati dengan orang yang buat macam tu kat kita? argh!

tapi.. apa yang korang boleh buat melainkan tutup telinga dan pejamkan mata korang? and all pancaindera yang korang ade... korang kene jauhkan dari mereka2 tu.. allergy..
but you just..
go on with your life walau hati terlampau sakit..
you can't never change the circle..
that's how life works.
that's how they work.. for me.. it unprofessional..

they are like robot y'know.. heartless habes takde perasaan..

" life is cruel. "

look.. i'm smiling.. yeah.. obviously fake..
i know you can feel that too..

and..
well, when you broke promise yang quite lama la you pegang.... with someone yang you care gila2..
haish. guilty..
nak minta maaf pon rasa macam.. hey..
x cukup dengan maaf.. it's more to.. benci diri sendiri..

but that's how i feel now..
even dia tak tunjuk yang dia terluka..
but i know.. she is..

i don't know whether it was my fault or not..
it's just don't feel right...

so, SORRY!

wassalam.. esok balik asrama sudaa.
tak suka sudah..

Sunday, March 13, 2011

holiday

hey!
aaaaaa balik rumah sudah!

tapi hati memang tetap kat asrama. HA-HA-HA.
okay, cukup menipu. hehe

sooooo, many things happened.

like Smat-V
which is .. i don't why i entered gubahan contest. noob betul.
but hey! we WON THE 1ST PRIZE!
yeay for the fantasy-palace-with-the-princess-purplish-wrapping.
great teammates. lepaskan segala tension seyh masuk benda alah tu.

and.. kem sejarah, which is.. a bit booriinngg.
history? adoiii. i don't understand why this subject perlu wujud.
dan lagi2 kalau kene belajar pasal bangsa negara.. oh my..

and kalau dapat guru yang macam suka2 tanya2 bila korang ngantuk dalam kelas.
HAHAHA. (banyak kali kene) then.. mamai punya pasal..
boleh tak tahu negeri2 tak bersekutu.. haha.. pastu tak pasal2 kene baca RUKUN NEGARA!!.
ceh, bajet cam aku tak tahu je RN ape. heh.

and.. uhhh... macam2 pressure..
macam tu.. macam ni..

bila semua benda yang korang dah rancang hancur macam tu je..
you sacrifice for someone... then..
you tak dapat nak capai sesuatu tu.. haish..
i feel.. regret... disappointed.. sad.. of course..

but, bak kate beliau..

"mungkin ade hikmah kalau antum semua tak pergi.."

yeah right.. i'm over it. for her.. please jangan mention lagi pasal benda alah tu..
tension betul.. stress aku jadinya...

oh... dan bila kawan korang suddenly changed...
tahulah awak nak jadi baik... takkan la sampai lupa kawan-kawan awak?
ke awak dah tak anggap kterang kawan lagi? TSK. sedih.

or.. kterang ni tak cukup baik untuk kawan dengan awak ?
huh~ how i miss the old times..
boleh tak awak lepaskan semua benda tu dan kembali macam dulu?
boleh..? tak boleh..?

maybe next time.. sometimes..
aku rasa tak sabar tengok kau jatuh.. uhhhh.

but kite takde hak untuk halang seseorang untuk berubah the way they want to.
let her be murshida... fine..

aaaaaa.
macam2 la yang jadi.. oh yeah!!
the day before balik rumah.. we had soooooo much FUN!!

110311 - BIRTHDAY WADDAH!!
that day memang aku stres tahap langit ke-10 seyh.
nasib baik ade korang yang plan bende2 macam ni..

sorry for the eggs and flour yang esok paginya kalau perasan kat tapak projek uh bau hanyir telur..
sorry.. :) hahaha.
sorry sebab aku main suck habes.. dengan bendah alah tu yang tuning tak best.. hak3.. dan.. yelah.. kat asrama mana boleh nak berlatih main benda uh en...
jibah, aina, pizah, waddah, kimah - lain kali buat lagi~!

sayang korang !! aku jujur ni.. haha, okay2.. dah2..
cheesy gile okay.

bye!

the first song yang aku cari bila ngadap lappy kat rumah.
xD
thanks SHE!