lies

the truth is. . .


i do lie. to. .
myself
you.
them.

because truths is so painful.
they bite. they kick me out from myself.
i wish.
i am a fairytale.



reality is so strange. . .

scream!

HOMEWORKS.
esp add math :(

i wish you don't exist in my life.

TIRED,
exhausted.

i hope i can get over you.

YOU.
him. my monster,

i should forget about you too.

INTERNET,
laptop.

i do HATE you. because you keep calling my name!

LAZY,
sleepy head.

i wish you're gone.

MONEY,
materialistic.

please don't make me obsess to you lah!

p.s SCREAM, till you feel it. SCREAM, till you believe it. and when it hurt you SCREAM it out loud.


babe, i do miss this song very much!
i don't have earphone to use my mp3. x(

the old voice of Bill Kaulitz. :) still, great!

strange.

BILL kaulitz. oh. murshida should get over him. but.

-sigh- i can't. xD

hye. today.

i found something very. very intresting song.

i love the lyric actually. and the singer.

guess who..?

Kerli feat Tokio Hotel. :D :D i love both !

it's strange. yeah. i feel strange.
with my situation now.
i feel so sick of everyone. and myself.

yeah. myself.
the one who wants her dreams comes true. but yet.
she doesn't do anything to achieve it.

she keep blaming herself for everything that goes wrong.
even though. it's not her fault.

she feels very afraid to face the reality.
she locks her heart in empty cold room. just for keep herself safe from the obstacles.
but yet.
she feels very lonely.

and it's strange.
yeah. strange.

she doesn't want to face her fears.
the fears keep haunting her. but she doesn't do anything.

okay. let the truths hid behind all these words.

p.s i feel so strange in your perfect world. sorry. but i don't want to change.

prefect and narrator.

hye.

yesterday.

ada kelas English-YPJ tu.

dan yeah. best. because. kami hanya berlatih choral speaking dan readers theater!

whoa. so excited :D

but well. . .

we need to practice a LOT.

bacause, nanti ada yang kene hiccup!

we had so much FUN!

and.. Tired too. :( and sleepy. [me ONLY!]

tu laa. tidur lagi lambat semalam.

actually, bukan tidur lambat. [ttbe teringat budak bahasa baku tu!!. imy! MUAHAHA.]

can't sleep. because of the black shadow is haunting me.. geez. crap!

well, now, kinda... err. sleepy.. but tu la.. tak tidur lagi.. :D

lepas update ni tido eh...

Readers Theater :)

The King and Merchant are reading their their script

and me. the black red one, be the Narrator 2.

Sir Azhar aways picks me!

Choral Speaking :D

"hey YOU! i want complete silence NOW! stop talking NOW!!"

haha. my script. -.-"

penat berdiri!

ni apa yang akan terjadi bila Sir kasik rehat sebentar.

semua bukak facebook. :)

termasuk saya.

tapi dalam gamba ni.. budak ni tgh chattng ngan aku. HAHA. sedangkan aku duduk depan dia je.

look, how excited she IS!

well, that's all for now. ops.

ja. The Great Escape! wohooooo~

p.s i feel like... i want to kill him. i wonder. . why i do hate him very much..

i miss you badly.

"Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure,

if i knew you were missing me too."

hye.

now i feel very stupid. [mencarut ke saya?]

tak. cuma menyatakan sesuatu yang saya rasa sekarang.

i just want to say that.

i miss that person. very much.

no solid reason for missing that person. but....

well..

you know.. the feeling of missing someone that always be by your side..

that always care about how you feel..

even though that person make fun of you...

ahh. maybe i'm too tired to think about anything right now..

but you. :)

ja, now, i will go offline. rest. and thinking how i can use my mp3.. if there's no earphone.. geez..

old song. 2008. :) i love the lyric.

p.s ahh. the blue-falling-hearts :) eh, no.. liver?